Our Rap

"The Drug Lies" by Zachary and Aaron Stephens

Lord take me away from this life of misery

this life I thought I lived so blissfully

I never gained nothing from the pistol “G”

maybe that’s why I always get a fistful, see

And lord take me away from my target,

I felt bad every f@#!n time I bought it

but I sought it, and somehow the sickness I caught it

and still think through thick-n-thin I fought it

And my life

with no wife

makes me want a knife

Cuz life ain’t so nice

with no one on your side

but I’ve been told more then twice

that it was me who caused the fight

but reality bites

so I decided to make somethin’

of what I made so light

and it makes no sense

to think about all the money I done spent

and all the money I done lent

and all the money I’ll never see again

whats the outcome of all my men

I had to drop all my friends

not half done with all my amends

not standin on the f@#!n fence

So guess what

its been 6 weeks

But im meek

and i seek what I need

I know I needa feed,

work hard till I bleed

stop bein’ such a fiend

no blindness I can see

I’ll achieve what I need

to finally be free

I can step up 2 be

the perfect father in a family

U know what

I know its time

to realize that it’s only right

to subside, from a life of crime

’bout time to not whine and legally get on my grind

start to provide, not hide,

tell the boys sorry cant ride this time

tell’m that needle its no friend of mine

all it did was put me in binds

hospital beds from all the lines

but it’s ok cuz spiritually I’m fine

This life is what I asked for I know

So I’ll go about this all, without bein’ a ho

I take responsibility for my woes

but I will not take it for all my bro’s

I’ve had my ups

I’ve had my lows

I’ve had my sunshine

I’ve had my snows

I’ve had my rookies

and had my pro’s

I think I’m ready to finally show

that I admit I’m like a box without a bow

I’m like a boat that cannot row

I’m like a car that cannot go

I’m like a man that heard this before

Yea, I know something’s missing

I know I am pissing

away everything and I’m not dissing

but its like I’m wishing

for the devil to stand here and kiss me

don’t hit me…… I don’t need your fist “G”

Like I never have before

There’s more in store

then getting’ popped by po-po’s

oh no

I know

why go

high low

I should’a died Twice before but there's hope

cuz Gavin’s Daddy loves him straight to the core

and he knows I love him, it don’t matter if I’m poor

this is my life and thats why I silently roar

I pray for him and for me, my knees are on the floor

I can't believe Zach isn't here to finish this rap

So it's left to me his dad

Can you believe this crap

I can't believe any of this shit is real

My son is gone

The Drug final sealed the deal

It's hard to believe you see

Because he seemed to be

Totally committed to a life of love

and recovery

So much so

I didn't press enough to say

That your not clear enough from the day

from when addictions grip

Can make you stumble and trip

So I took his life for granted

And didn't pay enough attention

Didn't stay on his on his ass

And give him enough inspection

Or hold him tight

And give him enough protection

And it happened so quickly

It makes me sickly

it only took one little slip

for him to trip

O. D. Get zipped

And end up as RIP

Leaving me with nothing to do

but try to get a grip

That Gavin has no daddy

And I no son

His spirit is lost

When it had just begun

And now the drug is boasting

Laughing in my face toasting

Here's to me

I finally won

Leaving me

With.....

Goodbye Zach

I love you son

Long pause. A hard breath

Lord, please tell me why did he live his life with closed eyes

Struggling to just get through the day

Poisoning himself to make the pain go away

I know when he was high he felt strong, free, and cool

But in the end

It made him weak, a slave, and a fool

Lord, please tell me why!?

Sigh of acknowledgement

I know ... I know.... that's why.....

Because the drug lies!

Yeah, i know.... that's why!

Because the Drug Fucking Lies!!!